I think you're still here
with me
sometimes
in a small
corner of my heart
living and
breathing and
laughing
again along with me
and loving me still-
and I never did believe
in ghosts or spirits
until the day you left
and
I found you
lingering
still
everywhere.
see,
the problem with me
is that
i am not good at many things
but loving you.
and the problem with you
is that
you are good at many things
except loving me.
and so the issue
at hand
is that delicate balance
between
pulling and pushing
until one of us falls down.
I was buried underneath a glacial tide.
Four months of volcanic depths-
fighting off demons that harbored close,
and the smell of smoke flood my lungs.
I swam the icy sea and heard
the mermaids singing soft.
Though burn it did against raw skin,
the lullaby carried me on.
Awakened by the hazy dawn-
soon clarity rose with the sun.
My bruised eyelids opened anew,
and found warmth in the clean light.
i like your body. curves and why-nots
naturally balanced in collapsing and unwinding.
i like the thrill of twists and spinal cords
punctuated by the fear of skin-upon-skin
and the shock. of something so new
with its hows and how do you do's-
i like the wonder and whens in our touch
rush of sparks flutter under my fingertips
butterflies chaos and exploding hearts-
i do like every part of you
bones and nerves and red and blue
and so how i laugh in a kiss
when you say do you like me too
you are everything I could ever love
beautiful in everything you are
you radiate light from every part of you
your smiles down to your toes
I never want anyone to hurt you
it kills me to think of that night
when we cried so hard
and we held each other
nothing would ever be the same
because we understand each other
with every part of our being
to think of what he did to you
I can't
and there's nothing I can say
unspoken tragedies
weigh heavy on our hearts
you're interwoven into every memory
threaded through my life
like a patchwork quilt
our story so colorful
full of life and laughter
and if there's anything
in this worl
you were incandescent
the light sparkled from you
in bright meteorite waves
through your veins
and you were so pure
like vanilla and honey
we were walking down that dirt road
and the stars rained down on your head
the thunder called your name
and you ran to the sea
every chance you got
once you said to me
"don't you ever die"
and I could never hear
another word
and I'd be happy
we were rolling around
in the grassy meadow
that one night in the summer
and you pinned me down
and kissed me
my heart bloomed lilacs
I looked up to the sky
and swelled with joy
because in that moment
I realized that you were all mine
and I kn
it's sunrise, love.
warm light beckons
and filters through the glass.
I've been awake for hours
and I've been studying every inch of you
like a scientist.
the heat of your skin
radiates from your bones.
so strong,
yet in your most vulnerable state.
I like to lay in the hazy dawn
letting shadows and light
make a kaleidoscope show
only for us.
blankets billow waves around us
and you are my boat.
I am a sailor
and I am an explorer.
you, a brave new world, untouched.
the gentle curve of your spine
is tidal.
we are magnets.
it's gravity
pulling us closer
until we gently collide
at daybreak
Would you dance with me in the kitchen,
with the moon shining overhead?
I'll take your hands and smile into your kisses,
and laugh at the funny things we've said.
I'll bring you into my garden,
and whisper secrets into your ears.
And after we've been lost for hours,
I will tell you all of my fears.
The sunshine ripples soft
upon your lazy cheeks
so let's just lay in bed, my love
for hours, or days, or weeks.
The outline of your embrace
blooms petals around my spine
our heartbeats tonight, how quickly they match
and our breath, and our stars align.