Screaming

I'm broken, crying, sitting here
Screaming inside, bursting my lungs
Why did you come into my life just to leave me?
Why did fate lead me into your arms,
just to take it away?
I have so much hate inside,
and I would just like to lay in the rain.
On the cold, wet, hard ground.
And open my eyes at the sky above.
And stop feeling anything at all.
But I can't.
It's spring, and everything is blooming...
but why am I so alone?
What are you doing to me?
I am not your toy to bend and break,
to play with and leave when you like.
I am standing in front of you screaming:
I love you.
Yet your back is turned,
and you're looking for her,
she will never be there.
And I'm sorry,
but no matter how much she hurt you,
hurting me doesn't make everything better.
I just want to scream my lungs out
and feel alive again,
like when I was with you.
and I wish I was strong enough to just leave,
but I'm not with you, I'm weak.