AloneStarry eyed as we lay,
Nights with you shine bright as days.
Hold me close when we're alone,
Your heart is my new found home.
As we look at the sparkling sky,
Your eyes sing me a lullaby.
I gaze at you with a longing stare,
A warm breeze flutters in the air.
Safe inside your tight embrace,
You look down and kiss my face.
Then all at once you disappear,
I'm cold and alone, laying here.
So unexpected, and so wrong,
You took away where I belong.
I hear your whisper in the wind,
but when I try to find you, you're gone again.
I Want to Come HomeWill she sleep on my side of the bed,
with my shadow still dreaming there?
Will she wake up in the middle of the night
and look around,
hear the background noise of your TV,
look out your window at the starry night,
hear the trains go by,
and think "I am home"?
Like I did?
Like how I felt your warm body in a heavy sleep next to me,
and I wanted to hold on tight and never let go.
Will her lips touch yours and feel their softness,
with your handsome face so close to hers?
Will you hold her tight,
and sing her the lullaby your lips once sang to me?
Maybe you'll drive fast in the night,
with your hand resting on her thigh,
and listen to those songs with her.
Well I guess I'm just "waiting on an angel",
but, please, I don't want to wait any longer.
I want to come home to your love once more.
I can't have these thoughts,
I honestly can't.
They hurt too much.
I miss you so much, love,
and I want to come home,
though it was never rightfully mine.
But with you, I am home.
ScreamingI'm broken, crying, sitting here
Screaming inside, bursting my lungs
Why did you come into my life just to leave me?
Why did fate lead me into your arms,
just to take it away?
I have so much hate inside,
and I would just like to lay in the rain.
On the cold, wet, hard ground.
And open my eyes at the sky above.
And stop feeling anything at all.
But I can't.
It's spring, and everything is blooming...
but why am I so alone?
What are you doing to me?
I am not your toy to bend and break,
to play with and leave when you like.
I am standing in front of you screaming:
I love you.
Yet your back is turned,
and you're looking for her,
she will never be there.
And I'm sorry,
but no matter how much she hurt you,
hurting me doesn't make everything better.
I just want to scream my lungs out
and feel alive again,
like when I was with you.
and I wish I was strong enough to just leave,
but I'm not with you, I'm weak.
RememberingI'm scared I'm forgetting you,
a boat drifting away from a dock.
Or maybe I've left your mind,
what if I am just the breeze?
Passing through lives and leaving things
-just a bit out of place.
I want to be a soft rain,
washing over you warm and clean.
You used to be my rain.
Coming over me in soft mists,
surprising me with your love.
What happened, love?
Or maybe it's just the hour,
and when I hear your voice again I'll awaken,
renewed in spring.
Oh, how my mind fills with what-ifs,
in my quiet loneliness.
You remembered me this morning,
The thrill of being remembered.
I wrote down our story,
and tears made ink drip watery down.
I remembered all the little things,
they came to me all at once.
I never forgot them,
just left them in the place in my mind,
where I take things for granted.
I do not think I'm forgetting just yet.
DoubtMy mind lingers on you-
It won't stop fluttering back
to thoughts of you.
And I do not think you care anymore.
We haven't spoken in three days.
You want me to stay.
You tell me to stop waiting for you.
What do you want?
I want to give you everything.
Feel your warmth again,
holding me, kissing my back.
Your skin so soft,
against my own.
A weight of emptiness anchors in my heart.
It took your place,
when you left.
And we haven't spoken in three days.
Do I cross your mind,
when you are alone at night in bed?
Does my shape linger there?
I miss you unconditionally,
and want to believe you,
but I doubt you dream of me.
FloatingMaybe instead of laying still tonight,
I'll float and fly away.
My dreams will lift me up so high,
An angel will carry me away.
I'll look down upon the Earth below,
and he'll carry me in his arms.
My mind at ease, no happiness or fear.
And nothing up here can harm.
My eyes will cloud with memories,
and from them rain will fall,
but the sky will wash the pain away,
and soon I'll feel nothing at all.
Maybe soon I'll forget his name,
Our memories, and his face.
The clouds will fall behind me now,
and put numbness in its place.
But I'm not ready to forget just yet,
for something keeps calling me home.
So maybe tonight I'll stay anchored down,
and pray that I'm not so alone.
AgainAnd tonight I'll kiss you all over,
'til the sun rises overhead.
I'll drink your love in like water,
and we'll do everything over again.
I'll watch your face for hours,
see no faults in your sweet eyes.
Watch your soft lips as they move,
singing me lullabies.
We'll live simply in your world,
and watch the stars align.
The night breathes cool upon my face,
and by fate, again you're mine.